your heart as cold as ice

You couldn't say
needed someone new
You actually thought
deep inside I knew

Can you tell me
How can you say
Why this should suffice
You passed me by
and your heart as cold as ice

Did you see me cry
Did you ask yourself why
Did you see me cry
Did you ask yourself how
Can you hear me cry
Did you ask yourself
Will we ever grow apart

You, you couldn't say
needed someone new
You actually thought
deep inside I knew

I wonder where we will go
Will we be the same
You passed me by
I laugh inside I think of you
You passed me by

Tell me why this should suffice
I hold you through the night
Now will I let it go
Soon I'll let it go

Can you hear me cry
Will you ask yourself why
Can you hear me cry
Will you ask yourself how
Can you hear me cry
Will you ask yourself
Will we ever grow apart

You, I'll stand by your side
I'll be there for you
You passed me by
You, I'll stand by your side
Please just do it right
You passed me by

You, I'll stand by your side
I'll be there for you

broken sonnet

ignored.
ang hirap.
tgal qng existing
pro prang invisible prin.
sa kanya.
sa mata nya.
sabihin mo.
hanggang kailan ko sasabihin
sa sarili ko.
na





paalam na..

silent screams

ang

















bilis...












ng..















tibok...














ng puso ko...














xit yan.
i hate him.
if he just realized.



kung pwede q lng sabihing pansinin mu nman ako.
kung pwede lng.
it kills me.
i know he's talking to someone else..
that he knows she's right for him..
it kills me.
can you hear my silent scream?
i'm dead.

bb

kakalimutan n ba kta?
>_<
pag ginawa ku eun,


tuluyan






ka ng






mawawala...






di na ko aasa, khit konti pa...






cguro,







ndi n nman tlga aq dpat umasa pa.
dhil wla nman aqng aasahan.
tama.
magkaiba nga tayo.
iba aq kesa sau,
ibang iba...
khit na masaya,
ndi tama.
paulit ulit nlng.
paulit ulit ko nlng sinsabi..

cguro.
tama na.
nakakapagod na rin.
hayst.



signing off...
*purple kisses

take a bow

by rihanna

Oh, How about a round of applause, Yeah
A standing ovation
Oooooo, Yeah
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You’re so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

[Chorus]
Don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now (But it’s over now)
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone)
You better hurry up
Before the sprinklers come on (come on)
Talkin’ bout'
Girl, I love you, you’re the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please, what else is on (on)

[Chorus]
And don't tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now (But it’s over now)
Go on and take a bow

[Bridge]
Oh, And the award for
The best lie goes to you (goes to you)
For making me believe (that you)
That you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech, Out

How about a round of applause
A standing ovation

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
Now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now (But it’s over now)
Go on and take a bow
But it’s over now

antagal kong nag-antay!

ahaha!
bwesit yan.
antagal qng inantay ung net..
limited kase!
badtrep..!
ngaun lng aq nag antay ng gnito ktagal pra lng sa net.. haha!

taz



wla rin plng sense..!
hayst.
kaluka..
hayyyy

you don't know what it's like

i'm so f*ckin tired of thinkin'
prentending.
my mind's all messed up.
i hate how i feel.
i wish i could change my feelings..
into something that i wanted...
something that will make me
feel okay.


i hate money.
i hate how it makes the world go round.
i hate how it dominates other people's mind
and eventually turn them into someone
that i wouldn't wish they would be...
i hate how it makes the people go crazy
i hate how it makes the people happy

i talked to him..

i planning to chat with him till' he buzzes me...
i was waiting..


but i just can't wait.



he's always the one i talked to whenever i had some idiosyncrasy day. Telling him how much i hate the way i feel and how everything goes.


He's just different. Someone would probably tell you that you should cheer up coz' everything will be just fine if you had a bad day, but he has different way of letting you realize that.

He makes me laugh when i don't even want to smile...


He's much crazy than me, we have differences. true. but our humors built our good bonding. His way of making me smile always makes me feel better...
And though I badly wanted to forget my feelings for him, I just can't help myself not to talk to him... And as I expected...


i feel better now, i didn't wait for him to buzz me cuz' he's been ignoring me since the start of the week... so i chatted him... told him that i wasn't fine and i felt bad bad for some stupid petty reasons...

i feel better now... he made me feel ok just the way i expected him to ease my pain...

Though i can't expect much from him, I still can't be too much away from him... for it's hard.. i know... it'll be hard for me...

sick.!

damn it! i feel sick!
i don't know why!!
why am i feeling this way?!
isn't it because i'm infected?!?!
ooohhhhmigassss!!

NOOOO!!!!

sh*t!

damn it!!

------------
my friend messaged me seconds ago..
her message goes like this..

******
you know why i hate
silence so much?





coz when it's quiet





when i'm alone




that's the moment I realize




I'm badly mssin' our noise...

******

damn!!!!!!!



i can relate >__<



i'm..



missin him..
damn it.

freak out!

this is my fave song.!
freak out let it go!
hell yeah! x]

Idiosyncrasy

Ang tanga ko.
Ang tanga ko pra isipin
na pra sakin un.

haha. hayst.

ang sama mo. bakit mo kasi kailangang magsalita ng mga bagay na sinasabi ko rin. nakakainis ka. nagmumukha akong tanga. oo. sa harap ng sarili ko. haha! tae. prang tanga tlga.

bakit ba ko nalulungkot? nakakainis tlga. alam ko naman kasing hindi tlga. hindi nman ako.
ang gusto mo. ang tanga ko pra isipin minsan na ganun ka rin sakin. khit na alam kong hindi. khit na alam kong natutuwa ka lang. kinatutuwaan mo lng ako. at khit ayokong isipin. alam ko nman, yun ang totoo.

natutuwa tlga aqng kausap ka, hindi ko maiwasang ngumiti. hindi ko alam pero masaya ako. pra ka kasing tanga! mental! haha. nakakatuwa kang kausap. kya lng. hanggang dun nlng yun. gusto kita. pero hindi ako masasaktan kung kakalimutan kita ngayon. alam kong hindi pwede. at khit naman na pwedeng magustuhan kita. hindi rin nman magiging katulad ng mga iniisip ko ang mangyayari. dahil. hindi tayo magkaparehas. iba ang nararamdaman mo. iba sa akin. :) :( :'(

salamat sa lhat. kakausapin prin nman kita. pero hindi na cguro katulad ng dati. kailangan kong itama ang sarili ko. sa mga bagay na alam kong hindi dapat. masaya. masaya sana. kya lng...

ganito tlga eh, :'(
sana masaya ka.


magiging masaya rin ako!
pramis! ☺

make me feel

make me feel like this
so i won't have to think...
make me feel invisible
so i won't have to dream...
so i won't have to go
to the place of make believe...

let my mind free
coz' i'm letting you leave..
i would surely miss
the way you make me feel okay
when everyone would fail
but i shouldn't cry
because of this goodbye

it's funny that i feel weak
whenever you don't speak
i've been waiting for you
but you've been ignoring me
since the start of the week

I guess you aren't just the one
i've been longing to meet
though i love the way you talk
we still have indifferences
that makes me think
that makes me go
that makes me say
"I'm letting go.."

I'm finally letting go..
thanks for all your memories...
i loved to be with you
but i have to be
in my right place
a place away from everything
that reminds me of you...

i was pissed off! wahaa!

nah. can't believe this. such stupidity ran into my neurons again! damn! i'll never let it happen again! he isn't the one. i knew it. i should have thought it before! stupid stupid! ahh!






i felt bad. i really felt bad.





DUMBASS!!!

stupidity check. forgotten? i guess it's just me.. >,<

Even before i create purple pieces, i already had a blog on another site. I used to write how i feel in that blog before. I haven't updated it since last year. I just remember viewing awhile ago. Titles were familiar but the contents aren't. I felt like i was reading someone's diary. But that someone isn't just another person... because it was me. It was me before... whom I almost forgot.

This is one of my blog's contents...
I want to put it here since purple pieces will be my official blog from now on... well, i hope.

~~~♥♥♥~~~♠♠♠~~~♥♥♥~~~♠♠♠~~~♥♥♥~~~♠♠♠~~~♥♥♥~~~

REALITY CHECK: purple kisses' self assessments and to dos

♥♦• stop wasting your time, you're doing it over and over again.

♥♦• prioritize the things that should be prioritize..

♥♦• stand on your own feet... not all things are done by group.

♥♦• don't get sleepy when you're studying! c'mon! you're getting stupid!

♥♦• think before you act! you're a freak! you're getting insensitive to other's feelings!

♥♦• speak when needed, shut up when it's not. you're getting talkative!

♥♦• surf the net and sign in your accounts after studying! not before!

♥♦• wake up early! all your classes starts early! you shouldn't have late remarks this sem!

♥♦• remember your guitar and violin, you should have time for them!

♥♦• saturdays are for your scholarship duty.

♥♦• don't forget your responsibilities and promises.. they have their expectations on you.

~~~♥♥♥~~~♠♠♠~~~♥♥♥~~~♠♠♠~~~♥♥♥~~~♠♠♠~~~♥♥♥~~~

i just want to remember these things again... I want to re-live them...

Goodbye kisses

it's been so long that we've talk
well, not really that long I think...
but I thought I've known you
even before, before our mind agreed
that we're finally friends

I've known so much I think..
more than anyone else
I feel I'm much closer
to whatever you feel
to whatever that happened

We're the same
I thought of having you
as my brother in past life...
well, if that would be true...
I was glad, I still saw you

I laugh when you talk
for we have the same humor
I can't ask for more
I felt I have my twin
for the first time...

Someone that understands,
Someone that would think the same way
who would not laugh
and will take away my pain
in a way that I'll be okay

But fate doesn't seem to get along
to what I wanted and thought
for we're having different minds now
for even if we don't speak now
I knew it. I can feel it.

You don't have to say
I can hear
You don't have to explain
I understand
we still have the same senses though

If these summer would say goodbye
our ways will cross each other again
But I'm afraid that if it happens
we might as well be strangers
to each other's sight...

So before that season would come
I'll keep the premises that once seen
and I'll just send you
my goodbye kisses
;'(

figure it out!

It describes me somehow, no, uhm, not somehow, coz' this song really describes me ;P
Oh my inanity.. :)

Unwell by MB20

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like Im headed for a breakdown
And I dont know why

[chorus]

But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

Im talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know theyve all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow Ive lost my mind

[chorus]

But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Ive been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon theyll come to get me
Yeah, theyre taking me away

[chorus]

But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, Im just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
Im just a little unwell

pretty much awkward

i've been wondering for so long now bout why my used-to-be "best chum " at school isn't texting me anymore. I've been thinking a lot of things why. Lately I decided to stop thinking about it anymore. My other friend told me that it wouldn't help anyways, it'll just make me sick and think stupid.

wanted: best chum.! haha

it's my third post for this day and it's not much obvious that I'm bored and I have a lot of free time to waste ;P I've listening to the music on iTunes for quite a while now. It's what I always do whenever I have nothing to do :) I 'm thinking of wasting my time in to more meaningful things. Well, I always wanted to do that, but how can I? I'm not allowed to go anywhere else unless it's important. I should always be staying at home. It's okay for me. I got used to it somehow, but sometimes it makes me wonder how is it outside, if my parents would allow me especially my mom. I feel so bored but I can't do anything with that. Maybe, staying at home would be much fun if I have someone to talk to, well... except from my mom. I have three siblings, but one of them is already married and he's on his own house with his family, my other brother is at work as well as my sister. I'm pretty much close to my sister more than anyone else in my siblings. But she goes home late because of work, there are some times that she's not in the mood to talk with me. I understand. But most of the times we talk, BUT only when she got home and on her day off. In the morning, I'm with my parents. I'm not close to my father so I don't talk to him much. Except from my mom and dad, the only thing that i talk to is my pc. Insane. Yeah. Somehow. I felt, feel, feeling insane. Just imagine, how is it talking to your computer? How is it creating a blog? Writing all you feel in a virtual paper and after awhile do you feel much better? Maybe. Somehow. If every person would have someone to talk to about their feelings and personal experiences or having someone to share fun memories, would a diary be created? would a blog expressing someone's feeling be published? would I register to this site and create my purple pieces? If only there's someone. If only I had a best chum. Well, I have my best friend. One that is the best. One that looks after me in all times. One that is great and almighty and never leaves me. But a best chum that would come into our house to ask if I'm okay or how's my day. One that is fun to be with and would take my boredom away. One that would teach me to play guitar, piano or drums. One that would enjoy drawing with me. One that would understand how I feel in a certain thing. One that would tell I'm too much when I really am. One that would believe in me and gives encouragement. One that would respect too. One who really knows me and one whom I can trust in saying how I feel. One that would talk to me whenever I feel bad or down or whenever I want someone to talk to.

No. you're wrong. I'm not looking for a boyfriend. I don't need any at the moment. I just need a friend. Because I'm feeling so alone especially on how I feel. I damn wanted to tell it to someone but can't. I just can't do that. That's why I need a friend. A true friend that I wish I had since childhood just like any other person who have best chums ever since. If I only have someone to come into our home and make me feel better right now... :-<

as written by a guy...

I just saw this post while I was browsing my multiply account. I find it cute and true so I decided to repost it here...

~~~♥♥♥~~~♠♠♠~~~♥♥♥~~~♠♠♠~~~♥♥♥~~~♠♠♠~~~♥♥♥~~~

we don't care if you're friends with other guys.

but when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.

it doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

we don't care if a guy calls or texts you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.

nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till the morning.

also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/ cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.

don't tell us we're wrong. we'll stop trying to convince you.

the sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

yeah, you can quote me.

don't be mad when we hold the door open. take advantage of the mood i'm in.

let us pay for you! don't "feel bad". we enjoy doing it. it's expected.

smile and say "thank you."

kiss us when no one's watching.

if you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

you don't have to get dressed up for us.

if we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.

we like you for who you are and not what you are.
honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. or my
tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up

don't take everything we say seriously.

sarcasm is a beautiful thing. see the beauty in it.

don't get angry easily.

stop using magazines/media as your bible.

"don't talk about how hot chris brown, brad pitt, or jesse mccartney is in front of us".
it's boring, and we don't care. you have friends for that.

whatever happened to the word "handsome"/"beautiful"

i'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "hey handsome!" instead of "hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of. on the other hand I’m not saying i wouldn’t like it ether ; )

girls, i cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don’t wait for him to change. ditch his sorry ass, he's a disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect

someone who will honor your morals.

someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say "i love you" ..and actually mean it.

give the nice guys a chance

guys repost this if you agree

girls repost this if you think it's cute

every guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this, so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this

holding hands
girls :if you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.
guys : grab it if it happens more than once.

cuddling
girls : when you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold
guys : automatically move closer to her.

movies
girls : during a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
guys : lift her chin up and kiss her.

loving each other
guys : when she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her
too... and mean it.

laying below the stars
girls : when you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat
guys : whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers

girls repost as: as written by a guy

guys repost as: girls need to realize

~~~♥♥♥~~~♠♠♠~~~♥♥♥~~~♠♠♠~~~♥♥♥~~~♠♠♠~~~♥♥♥~~~

If only all guys realize this post... Then I guess, it would be much better...
*damn! why do feel so sad suddenly!*
>,<

blah blah blog

I don't know what to write... I've been bored since i woke up early this morning. I wanted to go out but I just can't. I wanted to do something but I can't think of any, so I turned the pc on and went to this site. I don't exactly know what will I write here, well, except from my boring day. I hope to do a lot of things but a lot of things hinders me this much too. I also felt bored because I have no one to talk to. I don't miss my chums much, I know they're okay. I know even miss anymore my best chum because I know he's doin' fine too. I want to do something but I really can't think of any!! I hate to be like this again. I'm feeling sick. I don't want to sleep anymore because it will only make me feel more stupid.

wag mo nang basahin. pwede ba?

Hindi ko alam kung anung nararamdaman ko ngaun. Hindi ko alam kung nalulungkot ba ko o ano. Xit. Ako lng yta nagpapalala sa sitwasyon ko eh, ewan ko ba. Ako lng ba nag-iisip ng ganito o parehas kami? Bakit ko ba kasi naiisip to? Nagtatampo ba ko dahil hindi nya ko sinasama sa mga GM nya? Close kami, xia na yta ang pinaka-close qng kaibigang lalaki. Lagi nya ngang kinukwento sa kin ung mga crushes nya. Sa classroom aq ung unang kaibigan nya na babae na nakaalam sa crush nya. Malapit lng sa bhay nila, lagi nya nkikita, minsan nga hinihintay nya pang mkasabay pagpasok. Lagi xiang nagkukwento tungkol ky crush, kpag nga nkita nya un ng unexpected mgkukwento agad un, tatanungin ko nman kung kinausap nya, sasabihin nya hindi, kasi kinakabahan xia. Lhat yta ng crushes nun alam ko. One year. One year ko plang xia nakikilala ng maigi. Kaklase ko kasi xia nun pero hindi naman kami close. Nung nagstart na ung bagong klase tsaka lng kmi naging close. Lagi kasi kming nagkakausap. Parehas kmi ng ugali, magkasundo tlga. Feeling ko magkalapit kasi kmi ng birthday kaya kami magkasundo. Sabi nila ung mga tao daw na magkaparehas ng zodiac sign madalas magkasundo, magkaugali, kaya siguro gnun. Halos lhat yta ng importanteng nangyayari sa buhay nun alam ko. Kilala ko na sya, mas kilala ko sya higit sa ibang kaibigan ko. Kya siguro palagay ako pagkasama ko siya, pagkausap. Siya rin sa kin. Kahit nga account at password nun sa fs sinasabi sakin. Haynaku. Pano kya kung i-hack ku yun? haha. Hindi nya na siguro naisip yun dhil alam nyang hindi ko gagawin. Kung hindi kami nagchachat sa text nman minsan. Kya lng hindi ko na xia ngaun nkakausap sa ym, wla kasi silang net ngaun, kya txt nlng, kya lng lately... hindi ko alam pero prang umiiwas sya sakin o ayaw na nya kong itext. Hindi ko alam.